Mulai dari mana ya?? Okeh, start from my relationship with You. Thank you for the faith yg Tuhan dah kasih dihati, let it grow and multiplied Lord, so that I can reach out people and testify in boldness and in faith. Let me walk by faith NOT by sight. Lord, I feel sleepy right now, but I still wanna obey You, Lord. You say, pray and then I'll pray. Lord, tapi aku ga mau ini cuma gara" rutinitas doank, cm gara" aku bakal feel good aja..gak Tuhan..tapi aku maunya aku begini karena aku fear the Lord, fear You, Lord. That I love You Jesus...falling more and more in love with You...give me the heart and keep the passion.

Sekrang buat time management. Aku ngerasanya kok satu hari ga cukup untuk ngelakuin semua tugas ya?? pagi bangun, pegi skul, blajar, aku dah pusink besok harus gimana. mau pulang apa gak...kl ga pulang, ga bisa jalan, ga bs buang lemak. tp skrang Tuhan bilang, kalo aku harus blajar dilibrary, obstaclenya Tuhan, sering banget ngantuq ga karuan. God help me, give me the refreshment tomorrow so that I can do, study according to Your will. I come Lord,with the heart of repentance, kl tadi aku skipped math class. padahal parents dah kirim duit cape" bt nyekolahin...maaf Lord...Lord, aku ada pr math, ada pr english, essay english,ada journal english, ada business yg harus di catch up, ada accounting hw juga, ga ngerti lagi Lord gimana cara buatnya..Help me Lord...banyak banget..rasanya ga sanggup, tp kalo sekarang aku ngerasa bs, itu karena aku taw You are there for me, with me, helping me overcoming these struggles. Lord, biar disekolah, aku bisa maximize the use of time as much as possible. I don't wanna make it useless and meaningless. Tapi, keep it in balance Lord with relationship with others and You. YOu are still in the first place. I surrender my major to You, my prayer list into You, my wishes and dreams. Lord, You know them all.

Now, I wanna pray for him Lord. Kita kayanya dah lama bgt ga crt, ga seintim dulu...knp ya? mgkn gara" diledekin?? aku ngerasa dia jd jauh bgt, jd org yang aku ga kenal kaya dulu lagi..knp ya? dah gitu, knp kl didepan dia aku ga bs jd diri aku sendiri Tuhan, rasanya malu bnget jadi diri sendiri. lemak" dibadan rasanya jadi kaya penghalang gitu buat nunjukkin siapa diri aku yg sebenarnya...makanya aku pengen kurus Tuhan, biar ga malu lagi. tapi itu pake jalan pikiran ku sendiri Lord. sometimes aku ga bs tahan lust ku Lord...Lord, thanks tadi dah diingetin, tapi aku ttp ajaa makan...Help me Lord...next time, I wanna die to my flesh, amen!! Teach me that what matters to You is my heart not my appearance. Lord, aku kadang jealous gitu, takut gitu dia bakal pergi jauh, ga inget aku lagi, ga sng ma aku lagi, bosen ama aku...gmn donk..aku pengen cerita, banyak, tp takut dia pengen ngelakuin byk hal juga...ga mau ganggu dia...dia bakal ada disana ga ya buat aku terus? hahah..Lord, jawab donk. Dia kok males ya? Dia mau jadi apa ntarny? Dia kok begitu ya kebiasaannya?? Lord..help me to accept him the way he is. Lord, skrg aku serahin dia ke Tuhan, kalo emank dia buat aku, aku bakal suka dia ampe March 6. satu taon n more lah y pastinya...tapi kalo gak..ya Tuhan, kasih tau aku clearly, in Your own way that He is not for me. Make me broken and humble before You. kalo dia crt ttg annointing dia yg dia ga boleh relationship dulu. what does it mean for me Lord? Lord, aku mau balance between You and him. no one still can compare to YOu. aku juga minta maaf Lord, aku dah janji...kayanya sih janji Tuhan buat ga minum teh diet lagi, tp ttp aja aku minum. Forgive me, Lord. I knew it was wrong but I did it..Sorry Lordddd....maafin aku Lord...give me Your mercy...Lord, forgive me....forgive me forgive me forgive me....

Lord, aku mau bobo ne skrg, wake me up tomorrow morning. remind me to ask vemi what's happening and to make copies of my drafts. hehe...Lord, I surrender my all to You. Lord, forgive me....make me new in front of You...Amen..!!