Lord, how many times have I stumbled in front of You? How many times have I disappointed You? Lord, once again I come with the heart of repentance. From the story I've shared with roro...did I make any mistake to tell her the story? Salah gak sih aku cerita yang ttg yuyu?? ntar aku mesti blg apa ke yuyu klo aku cerita?? dia marah ga ya? bakal ga percaya lagi kl ya ama aku? tp kenapa td aku malah crt ke roro? knp ga aku tahan aja? Lord, kl waktu bisa diputar ulang, pengen banget aku batalin crt ke roro ttg yuyu..dia jg jadi keliatan bgt ga sukanya ama yuyu..yuyu jg keliatan banget canggung bgt didepan roro, kayanya mreka butuh penyelesaian deh...

hari ini, banyak bgt aku ttg yuyu, ternyata dia banyak bgt kelemahannya, n kesalahan" dia dimasa lalu, byk bgt n ga make sense banget, dia ama rara jg ada masalah kan, ama cc juga ada masalah...kebanyakan masalahnya tuh ama cewe semua? Lord, how should I feel right now? What should I do? What should I tell? How should I feel and see these problems in Your ways?

Aku jg ada masalah ama cc...dia ngerasa aku ninggalin dia. sepintas, Lord, aku pengen bgt bela diri aku sendiri, ngerasa ga salah..but I know Lord, I admit that I was mistaken, aku salah banget.,..aku ga bener" perduli ma dia, cm disurface doank..bahkan kadang ngerasanya dia tuh gangguan gitu lah...aneh ga sih Lord. How should I do and what should I say to her when she comes back here? Dia ga mau open,,it's because of me? Lord, help me Lord...Forgive me Lord, for being ignorant to people, especially to my own housemate,,,

masalah ku ama rara juga...aku...dulu pengen dia deket ama aku lagi..sekarang, jujur, aku jadi rada ga peduli lagi ma mreka...kenapa ya?? kenapa giliran mreka dah deket ma aku, aku jd ngerasa terbiasa banget, n take it for granted...Lord, this is not right!! Change me!! Aku sekarang mau hubungan yang deket lg ma rara Lord...that exclusive relationship yg bener" ga dimakan waktu n hal" yang ga bener, Lord.

Lord, I prayed especially for my relatonship with You...I want to have the feeling of "Wanting" that desire to come in my heart...to have the desire to do everything according to Your will. Lord........Forgive me, Lord!!!!! Break me down, so that I can understand how bad I need You...so that I can understand that without You I am nothing...

Now, I feel sleepy Lord...but, I want You to see my heart..seek me and take out everything that's not good. All the prayers that I spoke out, did You hear those? Yes, You hear,,,I know You are...I wanna feel Your presence...that relationship that's close...LOrd, what would You do in my life., do it, make it done in my life. I'm not afraid of anything...because You called me and You will finish the work that u started. LORD, I'M SORRY....