DOhhhhhhh..!! >.< one of my friends has left to indonesia yesterday. i went to the airport with the other friends to say farewell to her. I thought i was ready to let her go, but the fact was, i wasn't. I was not ready at all. the moment i saw her the last time, i cried so hard. i don't know why. My friends were not crying so i was the only one. but i think that does make sense though if i cry coz flora's my ex-roommate...so...i will be all alone by myself in my apartment now. i'm still looking for another roommate that can replace her. Wowww.....

lately, God speaks about hope and trust in Him and how He hates the wicked. He never likes anything wrong. whoo...man, yes, i need this stuff. i need that hope for roommate and hope for financial breakthrough. in 5 more days, i gotta pay for my apartment monthly payment and i have to have the roommate also. so...hmm...i need breakthrough. i need to put my trust in the Lord. man..this is tough. I'm afraid.; if i don't have the roommate and the money by July 5..i gotta pay the late fee for $100!! that will make another useless payment. i gotta pay for my books this quarter and i gotta pay for my t-mobile account. huhuhu....i need God...

for you who read this entry, please just pray for me for strength and hope, so that i might be able to go through the struggles...