He will be in the airplane for the next 2 hours and 20 minutes..

I just realized how fast the time goes by…

Soon, I’m gonna miss 3 of my friends…

Right now, one for 3 months…he’s gonna go to the summer mission…all the things that we’ve been through and discussed seem to be disappeared by God’s plan in his life. God;s ways are higher than mine…

The other three for…I don’t know when…one’s going back to Indonesia and one’s going to San Francisco and one’s going to Ohio. Soon…they will be gone…

I don’t know what’s going on…God, forgive me…forgive my sins and my rebellious ways and hold me tight in Your love. I want to put my trust in You. Only in You.

In the meantime, I’m having a problem with my financial condition. My balance in the account has been pushed to the limit…I have no more money and I don’t know how to survive here in US. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I can’t ask for more from my parents…they’re gonna be mad at me…they’re gonna think I’m not responsible for my money and they will be burdened. I’m worried honestly. So afraid. If I think about it with my own mind, I don’t think I’m gonna survive.

I’m also having a problem in finding a new roommate for my apartment right now. If vemi’s parents won’t allow her to live here with my, I’m running out of people who want to stay with me. I still have a one year contract here which can’t be cancelled. And what about all the other stuffs that I have? It’s totally ruined. I’m really into troubles right now.

God, why do I feel far away from You? So…far…. I want to get closer to You, God. Bring me, draw me closer to You…I want to cry under Your feet, a place where I feel belong, fell peace and protection and love and warmth and joy. Everything that’s good is from You, Lord. Forgive my sins Lord. This is the heart of repentance from me. Search my heart deep and detailed. Search it, Lord, so there may not be any wrong motives or thought in front of You.

Bring me closer…..Lord….Only You!!

p.s. oww, it’s gonna be another 2 hours and 5 minutes ‘til he leaves seattle to Singapore and then to Indonesia.

God, may you protect him with Your heart and Your journey mercy be with him all the time. Give him the health and joy and peace during his trip. Keep him safe and healthy ‘til he arrives in Indonesia.

Let all the preparation You had for Him to be useful in him doing Your plans on earth. Let his summer mission becomes a thing that’s really fruitful!! Guide him, lead him, teach him, be with him…and let me be committed to pray for him for his summer mission.


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