Now,,I'm wondering. Why is it so hard to keep in touch, not only to keep in touch, but to keep that deep relationship alive? Or even to make it deeper? When you got seperated by the distance, suddelny you realize that keeping ur relationship with others is pretty hard. Especially with old friends,,,

I just read a blog of a friend of mine; she's my old friend from high school and she's one of my best friends. I read her blog and recognize so many things happened around her. We have our own blog to share eveyrthing, of course, but she wouldn't tell us anything about her feelings or experiences,,,man,,what should I do now?

this world is confusing...

sometimes, i want to write only about God,,but I gotta admit it..i have problems and issues evolving around me...sometimes those issues are solveable, but sometimes, the only thing I can do to ease the burdens is to write how I feel, how I think and how I wanted it to be in this blog of mine,,,

so yeah, if u'r reading this blog and you don't feel like you wanna know more about my struggles, feel free to leave =)...no offense,,,

anyway..life's getting harder for me...i feel so far away seperated from God...why? I'm looking for the answer...life as a Christian is really impossible..we live to glorify God, cause He gave His only Son for us and thus we should be grateful for that, but yet, why do I take things for granted so easily? I think God should make me broken,,,so broken, until I can only run to God, not to anybody else, or even to music and my computer...

well, still looking for the meaning of my life...looking for my calling...looking for my skills and talent...everyone has their own, i believe i have my own too...

anyway,,,i'm looking for a job during this summer quarter..to ease my parents' burden..i mean, my account balance got minus >.<,,can't u believe that? i was so shocked when I found that out...I don't know, I guess that was the one that made me feel uncomfortable each and every day...since I knew about my account balance,,I felt so guilty,,so unworthy...so dirty....so rebellious...

and now, I know that I need God's grace,,God's mercy to forgive me...to cleanse all my sins away...

I pray God..that Your grace and mercy abounds within me..forgive my sins and my negative thoughts...forgive me for being disobedient,,,forgive my sins,,,,

amen...