Oh my goodness..it's really hard and very bery hard to keep on praying while it's already in the middle of the night. I wonder why everytime I want to pray to God, I always feel sleepy. i think I need a more powerful prayer. I knew it already but yet I'm still..you know..put it aside...thinking that I'm too tired and stuffs...God, help me..Prayer isn't limited right? so i think, praying through this blog is a cool idea...

But this is my struggle right now....three of my friends will be gone in another one month!! this is crazy, i'm just totally freak out. by the time they're leaving, i can be overwhelmed by a tremendous sad feeling. However, my feeling is someting that's unpredictable...i can be sad by the time they're leaving, or I can be absolutely feel nothing...what should I do...one of them who are leaving is really my best friend. I can talk about anything to her...but now she's leaving! one of them is my roommate...one of them is one who's getting closer each and every day..it's getting worse..who am i supposed to cry or tell stories when they;re no longer here?? what God wants to do?? I don't know..but it's getting harder to know God's will in my life...

Lord, I don't wanna be out of tune with You..I wanna be in tune..my prayer...seems getting shorter and shorter each day...God, at last i;m making an effort by talking to You thru this blog...i want YOU to read this blog...to know my feelings, thought, and ideas..hopes and dreams...
What are my values??

- intergrity?
-commitment to serve?
-humble?

i don;t know Lord...I really don;t know..it;s like everything is going really fast here...really fast til I am no0 longer able to see....Lord...SHOW ME YOUR WAYS....

AMEN!!!

I cast all the devils in the name of Jesus Christ! Only You, God who's sitting and be enthroned in my soul!! AMenn!!