Nothing frightens me more than knowing that I'm inadequate to do things I'm supposed to do. I don't know why, but now I really wanna cry... I feel so....inadequate. I'm working on my english paper and I found out how narrow my mind is. Believing is hard...why is it so harD? why is it so hard to let it all go and just...sit under His feeT? why is it so hard, Lord?

few days ago, my mom called me and she talked me about so many things. mostly about my financial condition. Well, first of all, it's such an amazing thing for me to be able to go to Us and study here. I mean..it's kinda amazing.,..for my parents to do that. We are not from a very wealthy family. So yeah, my life here is kinda limited I can say. I can't go shopping like everybody else does, I can't spend my money on things that aren't necessary. now, I have none in my bank account. I can only hope for His control over my life. At first, it was okay for me. But now, I feel something different, things that I;m not supposed to feel. I'm self-pitying myself now.. i just wanna scream as loud as possible. If someone asks me what's my dream now, I wanna go to a place, where no one else is there, just me and God, and I'll be able to shout out, to ask, to scream, to cry....to be totally me.

I just wanna be where You are God...You can..purify my soul,my life...so that it won't be bad anymore...I wanna be close...Lord, what am I supposed to do now? Despiting all the things that I want as a teenager, I have to self-control myself..I am weak, Lord. I can't do this. I am tired. Lord..forgive my sins...I repent Lord...forgive my sins. Cleanse my heart. Search it Lord...Search it, when You find impurities, take them out Lord!!!!!! Lord...I'm sorry, Lord....I;'m sorry Father...for everything...for every ignorancee...I'm sorry Lord.

None but Jesus.
I need none but Jesus.
I need none but Jesus.
I need none but Jesus.
I need none but Jesus.
I need none but Your forgiveness
I need none but Jesus.
You are number one, Jesus.
You are my everything
My life
My hope
My light
My treasure
My strength
My foundation
My refugee
My everything
My future

I live to bring You praise...None but Jesus. None but Jesus. None but Jesus. My hope is in You. None that I need but Jesus.

"None but Jesus" -- Hillsong United

In the quiet
In the stillness, I know
that You are God

In the secret
of Your presence, I know
that I am restored

When You call
I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I life to bring Him praise

In the chaos
In confusion, I know
Your sovereign still

In the moment
of my weakness, You give
....to do Your will
So when You call, I won't delay
This my song, through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

Amen, Lord!! Amen, Jesus...Amen, Father....