Okay...so another problem just popped out this evening and this is about my financial condition...again....=_=" I can't believe it. I am not using the money my mom sent to me that much. So, I put like $588 in my checking account, I withdrawed $100 from it. I paid $22 for shopping at Fred Meyer for my regular needs. I paid $59 for my PUD bills. I paid $90 for my futon cover. I probably spent $30 for other needs. Those wont add up to $588 right? I am so confused now, so panic. I am not a good person in managing the financial condition. BUt, what am I supposed to do? I'm going to the bank to track the use of my card and hopefully there's nothing wrong with my usage and they can return back the money, cos I lost like about $200 and more now.

Okay, so look. I feel so stupid, I feel so...unworthy. Especially, if you read this blog, Lindsay. I can't help to talk about God...talk only no action. Sometimes, I'm self-pitying myself. But now, I remember that I said to God that I wouldn't give up on looking and searching for HIm. I did that since yesterday, since a few weeks ago. I used to give up on HIm. give up on earthly things. But then, I read my petition to Jesus that stated "I'm a slave of Jesus Christ" Now, I;m looking for my fire to be on again in my life!! so that my life can be a testimonial that reflect Jesus for other people.

I need an accountable sister, yes, I do. I need someone who can take a look after me and tell me if there;s something wrong with me, encourages me, pray for me...you know, all those spiritual encouragement. I need that.

I think that's it. I'm gonna pray now..not to delay God's call anymore this time. =)

tHanks Lord...