For Bondman

I forgot to tell you Bondman, that I have completed the temperament sheet since a long time ago...I think it's about one wee ago. but I didn't check my mail or open my blog for the past few days right, thats why I forgot to inform you bout this. I got sanguine....and...something else..I forgot. the sheet is at my home. I'll inform you more about this later on.

Anyway, I just realized last night that through everything God gives me, any problems, temptations, He's increasing my faith in Him. Last night, my friend told me if we expect small things from God, that means we're insulting Him. So, here's the story. Again, I was lack of discipline yesterday. Instead of studying, I went to cafe with all my friends.

AS a result, at night, I was hesitant to pray to God. I was about to go straight to sleep, but the voice inside of me was so loud telling me to pray and ask forgiveness from God, and believe in God. I didn't know how, but yesterday night, my faith was really strong that God would forgive me. I mean, there's no way God wouldn't forgive us right. But then, I also realize that I couldn't be lack of discipline again, I had to fight my flesh. I had to stand up and fight my flesh together with God. So, I prayed to God and set my expectation that He would take care of me today, that He would enable me to go through this day with a discipline attitude. Amen!!!!

I believe in You God. I know You will mold me, I believe...I so believe that You will increase my faith in You.

One more good thing, my brother, he's in indonesia now, he decided to come here to seattle. now, the problem is, my parents said that it's too expensive to send him here together with me. they said they couldn't afford it. I know that financially, it's only by God's grace and favor that I am here right now. Now, I REALLY WANT MY BROTHER TO BE HERE WITH ME.

I know it's impossible to think about. But I pray God, right now, that You willl open ways to enable my brother to be here -- if it's your will. I really want him to be here Lord, so that he's staying away from all the bad things. I pray Lord, if it's Your will for my brother to be here, then, provide ways, provide financially, all the money needed, provide them, Lord. AMEN!!! I believe in You. I ask for Your favor Lord!!!! Amen.

anyway, that's it for today. Thank You, Lord.