Wow. It's been almost a month since I updated this blog! Haha...

Hmm, I, Vemi (my roommate), Tommy and Nata went to IndoCafe today. It's so hard for us to get there. We had to take a bus to school first, then transfer to Aurora Transit Center, then to Northgate Transit Center, then take another bus to IndoCafe. If you ask me, "what for?" then, it was just to eat Indonesian food and to have fun together. Tommy and Nata just moved to their new apartment, which is just a few blocks away from mine. My roommate really wanted to eat that gado" and soto betawi, so we bear the windy rainy cold day. We had fun though.

Meanwhile, my other friends had dim sum in the morning and they planned to go to Tulalip, one of the famoous factory outlets in seattle *well, at least, what I think* but they didn't. Instead, they went to Alderwood Mall. When I heard that they went out together like that, my negative thought started to surface. Until now, I think about the exclusiveness among us.

What I mean about 'exclusiveness' is when you are grouping with certain people and do something together without other people knowing it. I mean, Edmonds, my district in Seattle, is known for its unity. But what I can see from the inside, is that it's so fragile that a little bump over here and there would crash it down. I keep on blaming myself for going to IndoCafe without asking the others to go with us. It's like, the four of us went to IndoCafe, and the rest were in the mall. So seperated, so exclusive *that's how we call it here* I know that this is a problem from my own self, my negative thinking and stuff. But, to be honest, I'm so afraid they would think that we're being so exclusive by going to IndoCafe by ourselves. I hope they don't, though. Well, confusing, huh? it's ok. this isn't something so important that you should understand about --well, if any is still reading my abandoned blog. =p

Anyway, it may be only for a while since I last wrote in this blog. But one thing for sure, a lot of things happened in the past few days. And when I say, 'a lot' I mean it.

1. someone said he liked me. that someone, was a friend of mine. He's so close to me that we could -- well, he -- could share almost everything with me. He did say about liking one girl, but I never though it would be me. WEll, being honest here, sometimes, I saw that his attitude toward me is so unusual, but I have never had enough brave to conclude that he liked me. Still, despite all my shockings, he acted so normal in front of me and continually increase my heart beat. Don't know why...

2. Despite everything that is going on around me lately, I found a verse which encourages me so much to start to travel light with God. Not carrying the burden of fear, worry, resentment, pain, etc anymore with me. To travel light means to trust God, with everything that I am, and start to put your burdens down.

3. I learn to wait on God.

I thank God for today. Thank God for friends that are always there, accepting the true me *cs_2 especially =p* I could never thank God enough for giving me all this blessings. I always thought that God has never given me enough blessings, but yet, when I count them all, they are uncountable. Our God is an amazing God. =) He changed me, He is alive. =) Thank God.