I was about to delete this blog, or even forget about it, wanted to forget everything that I wrote here and abandon this site. It's been a long time since I wrote in this blog (ughh, how many times have I written this sentence?) Well, I haven't been a consistent and commited person the previous year. But, I guess, God wants me to be one.

The theme and the song lyrics I wrote under this entry show what I have been feeling God directs me to this year. I got Psalm 23 as my theme for this year.

"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want..."

I have so many burdens, so many worries, so many flaws, and YET GOD LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM, not for what I am trying to be. God loves me even when I was a sinner. His love is amazing!!! I've been holding on to what I call 'the past' and the 'current worries'. Those limit me from becoming who I really am. And I feel like, God is saying, "Let go, Ica." But, it's so hard. I feel like I want to cry everytime I think about this. How weak, how undeserve, how pathetic I am. I can't do this on my own. I might look happy on the outside, well, sometime, I really am though, but on the inside, I am easily broken. By words, by attitudes, by response from other people, by the way they react to what I do...Crazy, huh? I know there are so many people outhere are having much worse problems...and I am not self pitying myself by writing my struggles in this blog. I am just trying to let go everything that's going on in my mind. It's like a tornado hitting my mind everyday, you know? ButI am so happy because by writing this blog, I can proclaim to the world that He is amazing!!

And, right now, even now I'm in the weakest point, I know God will lead me to be better. He knows me, He knows the best and He'll lead me...Amen, Lord!! Thank You for this opportunity...