I talked to my friend, Angie, just now and I feel different. I did feel some strange feeling toward her lately, like envy and stuff, and I know it's not good. So, I'm struggling a little bit about it. Still wondering whether I have to tell her or not about this. SHe doesn't feel anything strange toward me, I believe. That's why it's kinda strange if, out of the blue, I tell her that I don't like her in certain occasion. Well, to be honest, it's only about envy. She's stronger than me, when she got more attention than me then I'm gonna dislike her, she's >.< uhmm...skinnier than me, etc etc bla bla...I have to change the way I think, or else, it's gonna drag me down, slowly but sure. I'm sorry, ngie...I'm sorry, Lord..

I do feel intimidated too...by lele especially. I mean, I applied for the scholarship and he is the one who got it. Is there anyway that the scholarship is granted not only because of your grade? I mean, I need it, so much, well, I know I just got to strive for it...I want to apply but, I am so embarassed because of lele. What if I don't get it? Huahhhh...I know, I think too much. I need to be brave enough to take another step and just jump in. Lord, help me...give me the courage..and faithh..

Anyway, gotta read some political science cases =p so, need to go now..thank You, Lord, for the quality time. =)