Every day, I feel like my life is degrading. I feel more incompetent as a person to do what I am supposed to do, such as, studying, talking to people, bringing myself up. I feel like myself can't do anything. I need to really depend on God to do something. I know it's good, but then, I don't get to trust Him as much as I need to. It's frustrating. Why is it so hard to believe when you can't see it?

I figure, we need faith in this time being. Faith, when we can't see the path ahead. When the only thing that we can do is to hold Jesus's hands and trust Him that He will guide my life to the right way out.

Especially during this year. One of my Chuch member got cancer. He's a really strong man of God, a humble one, a really good husband and father, a burnt servant of God and a joyful one and yet...he got cancer. I don't understand how things work. One of his closest relative got a vision one day and shared with us. She said that the devil is trying to attack, to bring us down. When he can't attack our minds, he is gonna attack our health, he's gonna attack our faith, so, we need to stand strong in God so that the devil won't be able to do his intention. I know I need to stand up...Oh, how I need God now. How I need Him so much to set me free from all my condemnation and my sins and my weaknesses and all other bad stuffs inside of me.

I need You, Jesus....We all need You.

"Great is love that anyone could ever know. You overcame the cross and grave to save my soul."

See? His love is just..........................indescribable....seriously..no words can describe His love toward us.

Thank You Father for giving me this love. I want to receive it. I want it to happen in my life. I want to "experience" it. I want it Lord. What should I do to receive it? Believe it.

I believe You, Jesus. I know You never lie. You are always true. Nothing can take me away from You. Nothing can take You away from me. You are my Father. You are my everything. Jesus, I need You....sooooooo....

I'm studying accounting right now. I have an exam on chapter 12 and 13 tomorrow. I pray that whatever that we (vemi and me) are gonna study will bring glory to God alone!! I mean, duhhh, He gives me the wisdom to think during the exam. I am expecting good mark on this one. =) I am proud of You, Lord!!