Wednesday, May 30, 2007
"Ascribe to the Lord, O mighty ones, ascribe to the Lord glory and strength. Ascribe to the Lord the glory due His name; worship the Lord in the splendor of His holiness."
-Psalm 29:1-2
"The Lord sits enthroned over the flood; the Lord is enthroned as King forever. The Lord gives strength to His people; the Lord blesses His people with peace."
-Psalm 29:10-11
You give me Your words through amazing ways. Like today, I was only thinking that I want words, concrete words from You, not just conviction from my heart. Deep down I know that I have to submit, but I just don't want to. That's why I challenged You to give me words. And YOU GAVE ME.
Unique. Yet amazing. You used the fan beside me to open up the Bible. It doesn't open up correctly at the first time. I thought, it was only a coincidence. So, I left the Bible and paid attention to the wind, hoping I would get another passage than Psalm 29. But, when the wind blew, several times, the Bible wouldn't move!!!
I knew I had to submit. I knew it, Lord. I am just, tell me why I have to do this?
I remember when Ko bin" told me that I am supposed to be thankful to have this kind of problem. That not so many girls out there get to experience this. I know that. I know I have to be thankful. But, by facing this problem, that means more responsibilities. That's why I was so reluctant...
But, Your words clearly tell me that You want me to obey You. No matter what that is, You are the KING over the flood, so no matter what happen, You'll be there as my King, as my Saviour. You won't leave me and nothing's gonna be out of control when You become the King.
AND I will give all the glory back to YOU once I am through with this problem. I will face this problem. Not because of him!!!! >=(
Because of YOU
Just because You are my King and I want to obey You. I want to have a teachable heart, so let Your will be done. This is a chance for me to grow more in Him, a chance for me to show that the words "Let Your will be done" are not mere words. I walk them, along with YOU.
Jesus, forgive me for everything that I've done. Lately, I've been too busy to talk to You. I ignored YOU. But You are always there. Even now, You are here to talk to me. I know that Your love is unlimited. Unfathomable. Unimaginable.
But, Jesus, teach me, so that I don't take Your love, Your salvation for granted. I want to produce fruits in keeping with repentance.
Anyway, today I heard news from Sachie that she's bringing people to receive Christ more and more each day. She's just being used by God so powerfullly. This is a reminder for me. What have I done?? Have I ever won one soul for YOu? Never.
I want. I want to do something. Starting from obeying You now. Jesus, please increase my awareness, my sensitivity to Your words.
Praying for vivian, so that we're not just friends, but deep friends where we can start sharing deep things. Give me the opportunity to open up to her, to let Your name be known to her. I'll do the best I can do. As I go to school, remind me to always be alert spiritually. It is my responsibility to keep myself aflamed. I want to walk the words.
Praying for reren, denok, n karinok. Bless them abundantly. Let there be open hearts in each one of them. Let Your love be known to them, Lord. NOt just words, not just "idealistically", but let it be a LIFE FORCE where You really reveal Yourself to them.
Praying for Nettie and Lindsay for their health. God, please be with them all the time. THis is not just prayers so that people can see me as HOly or sumthing like that. I am not practising english. I am talking to You. Just because there's a person in my room now doesn't mean I can't talk to You right. You are unlimited right.
Praying for this relationship to be going. As friend. Keep our relationship HEALTHY and GROWING.
Praying for family. Protect them Lord. Pour out Your blessings over my dad's business, my mom, my brother. Esp, for their relationship between each other. Upon their ministries. Upon my bro's efforts to learn Guitar, so that he won't give up easily. AMen!!!!!!!!!!
Praying for CCC this Friday. Let Your will be done, Let Your words be spoken.
God, why do I feel like I am not talking??
Jesus, lead me to the cross. Bring me to my knees, Lord I lay me down. Lead me from myself. I belong to You. I surrender.
Loving You more and more each day, Lord. No matter how tired I am. I know I can never let You go. I can never let You go.
-ica-
