This morning I woke up. At first, I was grumbling because I should wake up in the morning, again. Then, I sang a few songs as I took a shower. Then, I took care of my body and stuff. After that, I rushed to go to school along with Michelle. I couldn't believe what happened last night.

I mean, who am I that she could be open to me? I mean, I was so confused about things I should have done. I didn't know what to do. I was so afraid that I could turn her down. I mean, gosh, I've been longing for this kind of thing to happen, and yet when it did happen, I was not prepared. Strange, isn't it? I regreted it. I hoped I prepared.

But then, my mind is bothered with another thing. "Jesus wants to use me. Don't use my own strength." Was I using my own strength? I mean, how can I know that I am using my own strength? Well, yeah, I was kind of thinking too much last night, hoping that I could make her feel better. Hmm...I know that He's faithful. That's it. I am not going to say any more 'buts'.

I know that He is faithful.

He is here.

He is always here.

You are here, Jesus. You are here watching me typing up word by word. You see me here, thinking about all things. Now, I want to give all my worries away.

My University admission. I am going to apply to SU soon. Jesus, I don't want to worry about this anymore. In the name of Jesus, I give it to YOU.

You know all things that are going through my mind. You know everything that I have not even spoken yet. You know the deepest part of me.

You know my deepest desire. How I want to be with him. How I want to lead worship, congegration to connect with You. How Iwant to worship You freely. How I want to be care free in Your hand.

Hide me now, under Your wings.
Cover me, within Your mighty hand.

You know how I feel bad because of my guilt. Jesus, break me free of my guilt!!!!!! You say that there is freedom in knowing You!!! Give me the freedom!! Jesus, I believe in a power of prayer. I don't know how but I want it. And I know that what I want is a good thing. Freedom is a good thing, right. I know You'll give it to me.

Forgive me for all my sins. Cleanse my hands and take my sins away. You said that it is done! I am not supposed to think that I am guilty anymore, right. I am a sinner. I have made a lot of mistakes, but You know them all and You forgave them all. And now, You want to make changes in my life. By obeying You. =)

So, all You want from me is my obedient. OBEDIENT.

I am sorry, Lord, if I haven;t been obedient for so long. But, tonight, I want to recommit, in the name of Jesus, that I want to be obedient to You.

Protect me with Your blood, Jesus, that the devil may not be able to bring me down.

Draw me close to You. Let Your abundant flow of love and mercy and grace overflows my heart and keeps the praises on my lips. Amen. I want our relationship back. I want it restored. I want it more than ever.

Jesus, I love You and I always will.

I always will do Your work. Souls souls souls...It's what You want. My self, I don' think about it anymore. I put my focus from You alone.

I know, it's hard for me not to to UW, but I know, that it's the best. =) Jesus, I put my hope, and trust in You alone!!! I'm jumping!! =D

Philippians 2:13-14
"For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose. Do everything without complaining or grumbling." Amennnnn!!!!!!! Let it be done!

Jesus, You are strong. You are mighty. You are bigger than anything!!!!!!!