What do I feel now?

Regrets. I feel regrets. I don't see my life is changing. I still don't have the desire to pray, to be with God. Earthly desire is still something that I want so much.

I know that going to the mall is okay, but after I'm done with my responsibilities. Right? I have so much stuffs going on and yet I abandon them. I feel regret. I regret what I've done.

Heart of repentance. It's not just saying sorry. But it's turning from my old ways and life, to NEW WAYS AND LIFE.

Victory. Jesus says that when I walk with Him, I will walk in victory.

Philippians 3:13b says," Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead."

It's just so hard. I should laugh at my own mistakes. I need to have the attitude, of which I trust God to secure my life while keeping in repentance.

In Luke God says, "Produce fruits in keeping with repentance."

What did I do wrong today?
I did not do my school stuff before I went to ALderwood Mall
I ignored my job an an officer of IndoClub and went to Alderwood mall
I did not ask God where to go, prayer meeting or talk time
I did not have the desire to go to prayer meeting
I did not have a purpose to go to talk time
People go there because they long to be friends
Why can't I long for something?
How am I so focused on myself?
How can I put God aside when I am enjoying myself?


I know God sees these things. He sees whatever things I've done. Now, there's a voice inside of me telling me, "Do you think God is limited in loving you?"

How can I easily forget something? Or the things He has done in my life through people around me.

I sang for the sake of myself, not to worship God. I got convicted because of that. I sang to please myself, not Jesus.

But, I mean, how can I plese God by singing in front of other people? Worshipping God? Let God be known to all people through songs that are contemporer and relevant to them. Then, they'll ask what song that is and I get to explain it to them. Hmmm...what an insight. thanks Jesus.

How to differentiate my own thought with His thought?
How to differentiate my own desire with His desire?
How to differentiate my vision with His vision?
How to differentiate my will with His wills?

It is so confusing. God's ways is so hard to find. Why is it so hard? Does it have to be this hard? Or is there something that I missed, something that I didn't see or hear?

Philippians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Phillipians 3:13b-14
"But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

Not to be in the mediocre. Hmmm..interesting.

UW? =)

SU? =)

Faith without action is dead.