"Give careful thoughts to your ways"

That's the verse that I got from yesterday's devotion. I really want to take it deep into my heart. I dont want to let this joy of salvation go away from me.

I learned a lot on last Saturday. I really broke down, literally, I cried during the song, and became so sentimental throughout the day. Why?

Because I felt like I didnt deserve at all to be His child, to be able to serve Him, to get that portion...it felt so special to me.

But now, today, I felt like...normal...Like my life has been good, and I just want it to be good..Like I dont feel like I need to seek HIm with all my heart because everything's good.

But, I dont want to be like that. I want to appreciate, to value HIs salvation and His love highly..not cheap.

I enjoyed the worship in Kent though..enjoyed it much. Always. I liked it in Kent..to be able to enjoy my worship with HIm is just amazing. And I see Kent is growing. I want to grow too. I dont want to stuck here, while the others are also reaching for the crown =)

I want to get to knoe the people in Kent too. I want to be friendly to them. I want to be involved in their ministry, their problems, their lives. I want to share the joy, the pain...I want...I believe that this desire comes from Him...from my God...He wants me to do this. This Kent service, I believe, is not a coincidence at all!! I thank You, God, that You put me in Kent. You taught me a lot. =)

And, through the race, You're there to pick me up whenever I fall, and to cheer me up again...udah babak belur juga...tapi ttp aja...dicheer!! indescribable..I want to TREASURE it!!

portion for me...He has a portion for me...through this retreat?? through going to Canada? I don't know. Though my heart now inclined to go to retreat...I felt bad too to all the people...but just now the word came to me.."dont care about what people would think..who do I serve?? God or people??"

Hmm...retreat...some part of me wants to go to Canada though..the money is just too expensive..kayanya ga boleh makan diluar lagi deh..=( hehehe...bawa buah deh...mesti diet juga..

eniwei..tadi juga udah coba co-lead hehehehe....it was...INDESCRIBABLE!!! I remembered all His promises man..teguh..ga pernah diingkari..He always brought me back to the track..td enjoy abis..sempet mikir technical juga sih..tapi..it doesn;t matter..i enjoyed it..and i really have faith that God takes pleasure in it!!! Faith, ca!! By faith!!

soal caregroup...
pindah apa gak ya..sementara ini..cg kt cewenya msi lemah banget..apa pisah ya..g mikir pisah sih..mending kaya cewe2 doank..kaya gitu lebih...bisa terbuka satu sama lain..mgkn..do activity sama2 kl ya..hmm..

skrg ini..mikirnya jgn pindah dulu...soalnya cewe2 butuh guidance banget..tp Tuhan, ica jg ga mau mikir diri ku lebih tinggi dr mreka..gmn caranya spy kt bener2 bisa level out and just hang out together..and ga ngerasa irritated kl di bully..ga awkward..ga aneh2...hehehe...mesti kasi tau cewe2 laen jg nih..hm..mungkin makan2 jg ya..udah lama jg ga cerita2 nih..genuinely ya..jangan bkin nervous deh Tuhan..hehe..plan out nya kapan ya..kamis mungkin enak ya..tp bener2 mesti focus ma skul nih kl gitu..

yaudah..gitu aja..

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